Highly Improbable

There are moments in life that are left to the cosmic kiss of chance. I have experienced a few of them recently. In those moments, I understand myself clearer.

Before I left for vacation, I caused quite a stir up with my relationships. I said some stuff that didn't need to be said and yea I regret it. The thing is I was sulking on that moment while I was on vacation. I have been really off of my routine the past couple months. Removing things that I thought were unhelpful and trading it for even worse things.

While I was on vacation I bought a book called The Black Swan by Nassim Taleb. I am still reading it right now, and man is it powerful. The concept of the book is that there are random events in your life that change it drastically. That book has made me want to read more again. I used to read all the time, then I went Humpty Dumpty.

He talks a lot about these fallacies we all have in our own judgement. How often times we over estimate how much past events predict the future. It gives me eerily hope. He talks a lot about random negative events and how they are present everyday. Then you have the occasional amazing event that makes up for all the bad events. It is hopeful, knowing that all your negative mistakes can be redeemed by a singular event. All your losses "add up" to finally pay massive dividends.

A lot of this stuff applies directly to my life. Just like I said, I messed up before I went on vacation. Not realizing my own hypocrisy. It came around and bit me in the ass. The miraculous thing about it all is that humans have a built in reset button. Sleep.

Everyday you wake up you have the chance to change your own reality. All the mistakes that were made, you have the chance to rectify them. By no means am I saying that they will be changed overnight, or in a month for that matter even years. However, eventually there will be a point to all of it. The skills and rectifications that you do along the way all add up. Eventually, you will be staring in the mirror and will be happy with yourself. To be honest, I am not there yet. Working on it.

All it takes is work. Nothing is achieved without action. I see it in myself sometimes. When I make a mistake, thinking it will be fixed in a day. In that front I am still naive. There is a sad reality to it all, sometimes the things that get broken can never go back to what they were. Acceptance, I think is what they call it. I am sure I have hurt people and those relationships will never be the same.

The story isn't over though. We author our pages everyday. That is the fun of it all. Making a step towards your goals everyday. You can see progress in real time. It isn't devoid of pressure, that is the price of change. There is a resistance the universe puts on you, when you try to fight entropy. It fights back at you. That precise pressure allows us to change reality. It allows us to right our wrongs.

The essence of this piece is to inspire people to look at themselves as Black Swans. We are all miracles. The chances of being born are like 1 and 400 trillion. Now imagine that when you are interacting with other people. 1 and 400 trillion talking to 1 and 400 trillion. That is highly improbable.

I am starting to view every interaction with that lens. The lens of fate. Fate changes as you move through the world. Your perception is impossible to understand. The more people you talk to the better your life turns out to be. Perspective changes reality.

Fate encapsulates it all, even your wildest dreams. My dreams are indescribable to other people. Maybe that is what I try to do with this blog. I am chasing after a vision that only I can see. Pursuing this laundromat idea, or even the bar management software. While also creating. Creating new blog posts, new creative endeavors, new relationships. I catch flack for being me, but I wouldn't want it any other way. The thing is people rarely like themselves, so why would I care what they think of me?

It is a pursuit of mastery. Mastering yourself, friendships, skills, love. Being the best person for the given situation. I put a lot of pressure on myself to have it all figured out. The truth is no one does. Not even our parents. They are going through life for the first time as well.

So what are you waiting for? We are all different, we are all born with natural gifts. Use them, find your niche. Productize yourself.