Aimless Fate

I again have been really about sitting down to write. I have been trying to overthink it, and come up with this grand idea that people will marvel out.

I get stuck in my head thinking that I need to come up with this breathtaking idea, that makes people ponder.

I have been in North Carolina the past couple days, and man was it refreshing. I got a refreshing, not just of the routine. More so the soul. I was connecting with my chakras. This need to always be so hard on myself, comes from a place that I do not want to engage with.

However, the best type of growth will come when I venture to understand what are the true motive of my actions. Not just stopping at the surface level.

Even now as I type this late on Sunday, when it is due. Trying to submit this like a school assignment. These entries have felt like more of a chore instead of pleasure. It used to feel like a gift.

I think it is because I have fell off the habit. Coming back from the mountains, and kicking it into high gear. There is something inside me that yearns for more. I am not scared to say it. I know what I have to do, and I know what I need to do to get there.