What if?

I have just been doing everything in my power to avoid writing this week. I just keep delaying and delaying.

Instead of me sticking to the deadlines I set for myself. I always just push them out or to the last minute. Like what I am writing now. Broken promises. Makes it a lot harder to be proud of myself.

What if? That is the question that always racks my brain. What if I dedicated my time to this? How far would I go?

The answer to that question is you will never know. You can only know in reverse. Every time I skip or lazy around, it is just lost time.

I am trying... Maybe that is enough. But man it never feels like it.